Hello and Happy New Year.

Firstly an apology is due. We have been rather quiet of late mostly because we’ve been doing rather than thinking which has made a refreshing change but as I sit here with the kids gaffer taped up in the corner after a 4th day off school because of the light snow dusting (there’s a whole post on the UK’s lack of resilience going begging there, but I don’t have the motivation) and with nothing else better to do, I felt it high time to put together an update.

I’ll come straight out with it: we’ve decided to leave this little intentional community.

Why?

Well, there’s a long answer to that question and we’re not sure it’s appropriate to be airing everything publicly as it would be other people lives that we’d be commenting on. However saying nothing is probably worse.

The biggest reason is that when we moved here we were wanting to live in a tight-knit community but not a community, the differences are subtle but have stared to add up. We like the economies of scale with shared resources, neighbours that look out for each other (as they do here) and a coming together for community work days and the odd communal meal is really (really) nice. However for a community such as this to thrive the communal side of things is designed for a reason to be more integrated and now that we’ve had experience of it we’ve realised that it’s totally not right for us.

The – mostly self-inflicted – pressure to get involved with the community means that we’re damned either way: on the one hand there can be a feeling of ‘having’ to do something where at that moment it might not feel appropriate and on the other hand guilt for not getting involved and spending ’selfish’ time doing our own thing. Sure,as with most things there’s a balance to be had but whilst we can see that deeper community sharing is essential to long term survival of a community such as this, we feel sure that we’re not right to be a part of it.

Reading that back we sound like intensely private billy-no-mates lazy fecktards which is definitely not the case, but I can’t see how else to put it so it stays.

Another reason is our reliance on car travel. We’re 9 miles from the nearest town and whilst there’s an excellent shop 1/4 a mile away we still do need to head out relatively regularly. Ok there’s a (infrequent) bus and people do share car trips into town and yes there’s a library bus but even so we’re using the car far more than we expected and I really want to live somewhere that I can walk and cycle around.

That’s all I feel comfortable saying. There is nothing ‘wrong’ with this place, it’s just that we don’t feel we’re right for it. There are no large headline reasons, it is lots of small ones.

So, what next?

We’re falling back to plan B which is to get our own smallholding (here we go again). We had previously spent months (years!) looking at them so that market knowledge coupled with what we’ve learned during our extended stay here means that we’ve got a pretty good idea of what we want/need.

Our dream property would include:

• a 3 bed, 2 reception, well insulated house with wood fuelled cooking/heating that doesn’t need a jot of work doing to it
• 1-2 acres of good south facing agricultural land that is well fenced and drained
• an orchard
• 4+ acres of broad leaf woodland
• a natural water supply, ideally with a decent height differential for possible micro-hydro
• a workshop
• a poly-tunnel
• a barn
• being within a (relatively flat) 2 mile radius of a small market town that has a train station and an active Transition group
• being cheap enough that we can afford it without a mortgage

Ok, so back in the real world where we’re not millionaires we’re going to have to compromise. In our favour is that we are lucky enough that we can probably just about afford a tiny stone cottage in Wales without the land and occasionaly one can even get the land and buildings if you’re willing to roll your sleeves up, which we are.

I really want that woodland both for fuel resilience and it’s a place I could possibly work in the longer-term. One idea that might allow us to get one without a mortgage is to transfer our meagre pension funds  into – and things start getting hazy now – a self invested pension (SIPP) that owns the wood as an investment and then rents it back to us. The benefit of this approach is that – apparently – the pension can even borrow against itself up to 50% of its original captial. As I say whilst we know it’s technically possible, there are likely to be lots of caveats and a lot of hassle putting something like this together and that’s before we even find the perfect – with whatever compromises based on our budget – house with the perfect wood nearby.

Anyway, it is heartening to know that our aspirations are not totally off the radar.

In terms of location we’ve been looking at Llandeilo and Machynlleth (up where CAT is based) as they tick most of our boxes, most importantly they both have good rail links though places like Lampeter seem to be the best value for money (no rail, though).

It is sure to be an interesting year. We both really hope we can make this our last move as we’re desperate to settle now after approaching 4 years of roving around. If nothing else we have to think of the kids.